Fatigue. I didn't know it could be this bad. It just hit over the past couple of days and it's been KILLING. ME. I know, I know, I can hear all the moms out there going WAIT TILL THAT LITTLE BUGGER IS BORN!!! But he/she is not born yet and I can still sleep in on the weekends. And I really need to. This is bone-crushing fatigue that I've only experienced during jet lag. And I don't even have the pleasure of being in Europe.
I'm also in copious amounts of pain, most of it of my own making. Aside from "the girls" KILLING me which has been a constant since I found out I was pregnant, I slipped on a ramp at the post office the other day and pulled a left shoulder muscle trying to steady myself. (damn ghetto ramps at the post office, what the hell do they expect people in wheelchairs to do?!? slalom right into the PO boxes?! eeesh!) So that hurts. And then yesterday I bashed my right elbow into the car door at whole foods and it's been letting me know its frustration with that ever since.
So in short, I'm super tired, but all the upper body pain keeps me up at night. Dammit, isn't this supposed to be the time when I can catch up on my sleep that I will never get again for 20 years as my dear mother keeps reminding me?
On a counting-my-blessings note, I am still not sick, thank GOD. I hope it doesn't come on late.
My next appointment is July 3. It's my first appointment with my new obstetrician, Dr. Susanne Bathgate at GW Hospital. (yay i'm giving birth at GW!! whoo hoo!) I am a little petrified that I am going to get there and they are going to tell me something has gone wrong. It's still the 1st trimester and anything can happen. I don't think it's a totally irrational fear, because in my heart I really think that this little guy or girl is going to be just fine, but still ... I worry. I think a major part of it, though, is being totally spoiled because my old doctor, Dr. Sacks monitored me so closely (I had THREE ultrasounds in two weeks!!) and now I have to wait almost a month between my last appointment with him and my 1st appointment with Dr. Bathgate. Wish I had a time-speeder-upper ...
Oh and I have an NT scan scheduled for July 7. At that one, they will definitely do a sonogram (yay!). They are measuring the back of the baby's neck to see if it's abnormally big, because apparently that can sometimes be a marker for chromosomal abnormalities. And they are also running a major genetic screen with loads of bloodwork. I know it will be fine, but for me, that will be the last hurdle to overcome before we can finally share our big news with the world.
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